Saturday, September 18, 2010

Runner's Amnesia

I have to admit... since I started training for my half marathon over a month ago it's been difficult to recall why I ever enjoyed running. I think it's been a culmination of extra baby weight, pushing a crying baby in a jogger, bouncy parts of my chest that never used to bounce like that before (gotta love lactation!) and just a general lack of motivation. I have found myself searching for good reasons not to run. But tenacity is a bugger and I've been cursed blessed with large doses of it. So I hit the pavement; Loathing every. single. step.

Until today.

Today the true runner in me resurfaced. The runner that felt light on her feet. The runner that felt strong, almost warrior-like. The runner that could seperate her legs, lungs, and mind into three distinct areas and only focus on the latter. I'm not sure if it was the number on the scale or the husband so willing to offer her some baby-less time to herself that brought her out of her Rip Van Winkle dreamland but she's awake! I feel her taking over and I love it. Together we ran 6.04 miles in less than an hour. Something totally unattainable on my own.

Today there was no crying baby. No jogger to push. It was just us and my iPod. 57min48sec of running bliss. "Running bliss". Not an oxymoron to me any more.

Today I fell in love with running again. For all of the reasons I loved it before. The true runner in me is back. She's here for good. And I welcome her.


D-dawg said...

Tiffany- did I miss the post about your baby?? I don't see it! I hope you're going to post pictures. And great job running again- it is hard!!

Tiffiny said...

No, D-Dawg.. you didn't miss the baby post. I'm trying to catch up in chronological order but I had to post this one real quick because I wanted to capture my feelings while they were fresh. Baby posts coming soon!! And congrats on your awesome news! I am SOOOO stoked for you!!

Stefani said...

Glad you're back. I've missed your blogging amnesia too! I'm seriously considering that 5K with you next week.

Annette said...

This is an awesome post! I know that feeling of running bliss, I do. I envy you for getting it back. I need some of your tenacity to get me out there again. Way to Go Tiff!!!

D-dawg said...

Ok good- I'll be patiently waiting (o:

Lydia said...

Ahh, I remember that true runner. I've seen her once or twice myself, but not in a really long time. I miss you! I'm gonna call you tomorrow!